An Aura[sma] of frustration.

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Technology is not always my friend- more often than not, it isn’t.  Funny to hear from a 90’s, “millennial” generation kid huh?

The past two weeks of digital culture have been frustrating for me.  I am not a very patient person so when I code something and it doesn’t work, no matter how many times I try, or I follow the directions step by step on an augmented reality site and it still doesn’t work I find myself feeling nothing but aggravated.

John always tells us computers are dumb; you have to tell them exactly what you want them to do.  But what if I am telling it what to do and it’s just not doing it?  What if everyone else seems to have it figured out, except me? (That may seem a bit childish to say, but it is a real question).

I need to find a way to be more at peace when working with these technologies and truthfully, my boyfriend came up with a really cool potential concept for which I could use this augmented reality within my work.  The only thing that would really be standing in my way is my lack of patience and stubborn attitude.  Time to shake that and take a deep breath.  If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again… right?

 

And so it begins…

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The first two or so weeks here at CCAD, to say in very basic terms, have been great.  I have met with some faculty to discuss the possibility of what my project could be and how I can get started.  I am still very much interested in ideas involving feminist background and figuring out how to incorporate that conceptually with craft and/or photography.  In regards to that, I am at times overwhelmed with ideas and thoughts, often not knowing where to begin.  The past 5 months or so I have been enthralled with the idea of making my own paper with the idea to possibly print photographs on it and so that’s where I have decided to start. So far I made 5×7″ and 8×10″ sheets out of cotton balls and also a set out of a mixture of toilet paper and dryer sheets.  The quality isn’t quite where I’d like it to be, but I have begun some more research into obtaining abaca fibers to  make a higher quality of paper.

At this point I am truly interested in the idea of craft as Fine Art and how I can begin to incorporate it into my work, or in some way continue to make work that comments and facilitates conversations about feminist issues.  Upon meeting with a faculty member today we discussed moving in that direction and at this point putting a hold on my work that abstracts the female form.  I have completed that body of work and explored it to nearly its fullest extent.  My heart is truly encompassed in this concept of craft and so although it is unchartered territory and I feel very unsure about what I am going to make- there is no time like the present to get started and give it a shot.

In addition to spending time in my studio and trying to sort out my own thoughts, classes have also begun!  I truly have enjoyed the conversations that have been facilitated thus far in my critical theory course.  I am finding that although the texts are challenging I am enjoying the process of navigating through them; asking questions, hypothesizing, and forming my own ideas from what I am reading and also from what my cohorts are sharing.  Digital Culture is proving to be a great informative class and also inspiring interesting discussion between our first year group.  I am keen to see everyone’s work on Thursday as we officially open up our Grad Seminar class.  Thankfully no critiques just yet, but I am excited to see everyones ideas and chatter about what they are interested in come to life.