Working through this creative block has been interesting but I think I am finally getting somewhere.
(In progress work below using finger crocheted wire, found objects, hand sewn curtains
After a stressful day and a brief mental breakdown, I took the afternoon to reclaim some of my fabric image scraps from last semester. I cut them down into about 1/2″ or 1/4″ strips and connected them to create a length of “yarn.” I then hand crocheted the images together.
Recently I have been exploring a lot with materials and process. I’ve hit a pretty hard wall it feels and for a while felt like I lost a large creative drive because I was stressing myself so much about content. I’ve been doing my best to put that all aside and just make for the sake of making- go back to just allowing myself to be a creative thinker and artist the way I know how to.
So here’s some images of my experiment from the evening- not quite finished and it’s definitely something I’d like to continue to develop.
I am officially a crazy cat lady. Finally we’re back in Columbus after a wedding weekend and some time spent at home to see family. I’m still in an odd place with my work. Not knowing what to make or how to bring it all together. Nonetheless I am trying my best to create something and I am starting with collage.
On Wednesday I met with my mentor Danielle Julian Norton. Together we spoke about the direction of my work and brainstormed through some potential ideas I was creating. I felt a lot better as we spoke and as our meeting concluded. She really gave me some excellent advice in a way to think about working and art making in general that I hope will help me not only now but further into my career.
Today I also had the pleasure of meeting with Curator Amanda Hunt. Unfortunately I missed her lecture last night because I had work-upon meeting her and seeing how down to earth and awesome she was, I was even more bummed that I wasn’t able to attend. We had a quick 30 minute discussion and she was able to give me some artists to consider and some advice in regards to where I am thinking with going in my work.
Don’t be too literal in what I am thinking of referencing.
Be aware of the spectrum of experiences that could be applicable-not just my own.
I even briefly spoke with her about what I am thinking about for my possible thesis work and her intrigue was encouraging. It was wonderful to get some time to speak with someone outside of CCAD and have them talk through my work and ideas with me. Time flew by unfortunately but nonetheless it was a great opportunity.
This semester has been really wonderful and chalk full of studio visits which has been so helpful and eye opening. I realized last semester I had not really taken advantage of visiting artists and opportunities like this and so I made a promise to myself that this semester I would make sure to really take advantage of visiting artists and lecturers who were willing to meet with students and do my best to meet with as many as possible. So far it has served as a really positive avenue to understand my work better and get more of a holistic insight. I am so blessed to be at a program that offers so many opportunities for growth and exploration.
Also- Amanda was the first person to ever ask me if I was a feminist and in the moment I was almost startled by the question. I felt almost nervous or unsure but proudly answered, yes.
On Thursday I had a studio visit with Malcolm Cochran. I had never met Malcolm before but we had a wonderful conversation and I appreciated his interest in getting to know me beyond my artwork. He wanted to know where I grew up, asked me about my family – how did I decide to make art my life. And then we got into the nitty gritty of it all. I’m a talker- and usually during studio visits I feel the time crunch and feel like I have to get things out as quickly as possible- often overwhelming myself and probably the visitor. Malcolm’s visit however felt relaxed, calm, and as if time was infinite. Just another element I really appreciated during our meeting.
As we spoke about my work (both past undergraduate pieces and current works) I began to feel less and less sure of my graduate work. Not in a sense that it’s poor work but rather what it is I have been trying to understand within the work. Malcolm emphasized the importance of exploring ideas and questions and finding answers within the work rather than starting with an answer and then trying to make work about it- which is the place I seem to have found myself in.
Drawn to my photographs from last semester he encouraged me to use them as sketches and re-look at them for more understanding and to try to find perhaps a commonality or what makes them interesting.
As for my most current video work he made a point to remind me that sometimes “confidence can be blinding.” A point that redirected us to his advice on exploration and question asking. There is a pressure within graduate school to make sure you know what your work is about- which myself and my classmates can attest to. Malcolm and I discussed this, and obviously it’s important to know what you’re making and why-but as he reminded me, explore IDEAS, see what kind of QUESTIONS you’re asking yourself and within that you will figure out what your work is about.
I seem to have set an agenda for myself and have worked backwards. “I am making work about Womens issues and oppression within domesticity.” But am I really? I would like to- but what if the work is exploring something else in a different way-not in the way I intended?
One of Malcolm’s final pieces of advice was to think of art making as a way of making soup. Say you make a really good tomato bisque, with fresh tomatoes, basil, chunks of mozzarella cheese, some salt and pepper. It’s delicious but the next time you make it you use that original recipe as a jumping off point to alter it and make it even better- experiment with some more flavors. The fresh tomatoes were a great addition so you decide to put more fresh ingredients in rather than artificial spices. This brands a new type of tomato bisque but nonetheless had the same initial concept behind it.
What he was saying was that each artwork made should be inspiration for the next. Should serve as a jumping off point- take the best parts of the previous work and make a new recipe with them.
I appreciated this analogy in many ways. Since the visit I have felt a bit overwhelmed and lost within my work and have no idea where I’m going. Nevertheless, I am going to go back to my photographs from last semester and really look at them, I’m going to ask myself questions about what I am thinking about or trying to explore, I am going to examine my video works and do the same hoping that after all that I may have some pretty good ingredients to make a strong and hearty soup.
Each week Ric Petry, the Director of the Graduate Program here at CCAD sends out an email with the same title as above. It gives all of the grad students a break down of what we can look forward to with the upcoming week. Meetings, lectures, studio visits, who is critiquing, etc. It’s something I look forward to each week. Even more so I look forward to Ric’s last ending lines. Always uplifting, always encouraging, and always pushing us to be more. It’s crazy to think I have just registered for my next semesters classes- the beginning of my second and final year of graduate school. Time always seems to move too quickly just when you want it to slow down…
“Ok, we are deep in the belly of this beast. Work just as hard as you know how, then a little harder from now till May. This is such a precious time and as any 2nd year student will tell you it goes too fast.”
Thanks Ric, for the constant reminders of how lucky we are to be in such a place in our lives to be part of this program and exploration of ourselves as artists and people.