Where did my photos go?
I’ve decided to get into exploring this theme or concept of the pressures, burdens, and dirty work that is domesticity. I’ve begun to print different images on fabric related to house hold chores, for example, doing the dishes. I am inspired by the beautiful and detailed aprons that many women wore in the 1950s and 60s while they did such household chores. They’re often beautiful with patterned flower fabric (which is something I have always loved), and ruffled edges or patterns and yet they would be cleaning and scrubbing floors, vacuuming, ironing, and cleaning greasy dishes in them. Keeping up this beauty and happy wife persona even while doing such laborious and unglamorous tasks as household chores is very interesting to me.
I have started to make an apron of my own out of purchased fabric and plan to also make an apron or small sample out of the pieces that I printed on personally, (see below). I plan to explore a photographic process using SuperSauce (Supersauce demo) which is a type of photographic transfer, on the fabrics that have floral patterns already on them. I am concerned the fabric I bought may be a bit too busy, but we shall see.
I also plan to use the Supersauce to do some transfers onto dish towels as well. In addition I will be exploring what happens to film when it is soaked in certain cleaning products over a period of time. I currently have a digital print soaking in water and dish soap at home… I am wondering if it has started to fall apart yet.
Looking at various manifestos and the definition of what an exact manifesto is, I was a bit overwhelmed. However, upon continued research, note taking, and brain storming I came to the conclusion that I wanted to make one that was written with declarations and commanding statements. I wanted to make pertinent not only the things that inspire me or that I care about but also the daily struggles I have as an artist.
Below you’ll find my manifesto as well as some references to ones that helped me reach the final result of mine.
Having to read articles over and over while still not fully understanding what they mean is stressful. Especially when something in regards to one such article is going to be on a written exam in the next few months.
Not having any artwork made or any clear idea of what the hell I am doing is overwhelming and making me anxious.
I know that I am an intelligent individual. I know that I am a creative artist and a hard worker. Someone saw some sort of potential in me in order for me to get into this program, so I guess I just need to believe in all of that.
But right now, I feel very unsettled.
See also my ancient tumblr blog http://sharbearrr.tumblr.com/
How is it already the 4th week of my MFA? Yikes. So much time has passed and yet I have very little work to show for it. I critique next week and I am very much anxious about getting something produced in the time between now and then.
I had a meeting on Friday with Carmen Winant, a faculty member here at CCAD who teaches a variety of theory/art history based courses with both Graduate and Undergraduate students. I knew she would be a great person to talk to about my work and ideas because of her background in feminist theory/history and her personal work. Also, considering nearly everyone I have spoken with about my work and ideas has recommended I speak to Carmen.
Anyway, I think she made a great recommendation for me in regards to beginning my work. She suggested that instead of focusing on one specific topic, think of a broader or more general idea/concept and in a way build from there. For example, don’t think so much about maybe just doing work involving menstruation and women’s experience with that, but think more about this idea of “betrayal” of the body and expand on that.
I agree that starting with a larger concept will help flourish some broader ideas and also facilitate more exploration through making. My struggle however, is that although I wanted to take a break from making work about the body this semester, I seem to have circled right back into it…granted, the concept and idea of the body betraying itself and these issues women face internally and externally is much different than that of my previous work that explored the female form abstractly. Regardless, I am still really drawn to the idea of domesticity and life within the home and the role that women play in it. Originally, this is the topic I wanted to explore more and dive into and why, in a way, I had started to think of motherhood and it’s stressors so much. In my thinking about motherhood, however, I started to think about the body and seemed to have lead myself to this idea of body and betrayal. (See blog post titled 28th day). I am not totally against making work about the female body in this new way and exploring it, but I really don’t want to lose this interest in domesticity just yet and not take this time to further my interest and exploration in it. The first semester of my MFA, as many have told me, is really about exploration with not only materials, but concepts and ideas as well and so at this point, I am going to continue to explore the concept of domesticity as well possibly allowing it to become the forefront of my artistic work.
I have received an immense amount of responses from people willing to participate in my Call to those who Bleed, and so I am not throwing all of those ideas and things away, but for now, while I wait to receive stories in the mail and really figure out what else this idea of bodily betrayal could become, I am also going to explore some ideas in relation to domestic life and a woman’s role within it.