An Aura[sma] of frustration.


Technology is not always my friend- more often than not, it isn’t.  Funny to hear from a 90’s, “millennial” generation kid huh?

The past two weeks of digital culture have been frustrating for me.  I am not a very patient person so when I code something and it doesn’t work, no matter how many times I try, or I follow the directions step by step on an augmented reality site and it still doesn’t work I find myself feeling nothing but aggravated.

John always tells us computers are dumb; you have to tell them exactly what you want them to do.  But what if I am telling it what to do and it’s just not doing it?  What if everyone else seems to have it figured out, except me? (That may seem a bit childish to say, but it is a real question).

I need to find a way to be more at peace when working with these technologies and truthfully, my boyfriend came up with a really cool potential concept for which I could use this augmented reality within my work.  The only thing that would really be standing in my way is my lack of patience and stubborn attitude.  Time to shake that and take a deep breath.  If at first you don’t succeed, try, try again… right?



Failure as a means to succeed

When doing anything, there is bound to be failure or struggle along the way.  There is a cliche and common saying, “nothing worth having comes easy,” and I believe that to be pretty true.  As an athlete/rugby player I can look back at my career and think about all the hard work I put in, in order to be successful.  I can remember each painstaking loss and the motivation it created moving forward.  The same applies to an artistic practice, believe it or not.

For some people, things just come easily in art, and they are incredibly talented naturally.  I am not one of those people, so within my art career, just as my athletic I have had many bumps in the road.  But what you choose to do with your failure is what determines the kind of artist, and person you will be.  Will you use it as motivation, and rise, continuing to push until you succeed or will you crumble under the failure, and allow yourself to fall into a pit of self doubt and worry? You decide.


Below are a few failures I have encompassed over the past few weeks.  Though they are my first, I am sure they will not be my last.


The negatives above were soaked in windex, dish soap, and had other cleaning products sprayed on them in attempts to see how they would be effected.  Unfortunately, nothing happened.  The cleaning products didn’t leave behind any grit, or grime as I had hoped… shocking right? (Hopefully you can hear my sarcasm).   Any who, at my critique a few of my peers recommended photographer Matthew Brandt who has done similar work, so hoping to find some solutions/inspiration through his work!


Believe it or not this apron began its completion as a fail… that nice gathered edge you see? What a nightmare!  In order to gather the edge you must sew two seams and then separate the bobbin and needle threads on the garment, taking two of the same and tying them together on each end, and then leaving the other two to be pulled to create the gather.  After misunderstanding this process, not once but two or three times, I was finally able to get it right.  Still wasn’t as clean as I’d like it to be, but even after the failure and having to start the seam over, again and again, I was able to get it done! Hallelujah!  The struggle was well worth it.

I made it.


A quilt from 2014+3 test fabric prints+3 vintage inspired, hand sewn aprons with images printed and transferred+3 dish towels with transferred images+an old kitchen table with various books placed as reference (books not pictured)= I made it through my first critique.

I felt prepared, but also nervous and unsure of what to expect.  The past two weeks I have seen and participated in critiques, but the success of the critique really depended on the artist and what they had to offer, so truly each one is a sort of “surprise.”  Overall, I got what I would say was some great feedback from my peers.  Praises, criticisms, suggestions, but most importantly, encouragement to keep pushing and to do even more; to take the subtlies of life and use them in my artwork, to use personal experiences as a means to impact my work, and to not get caught in the echo chamber that is feminist art and domestic conversation.

I am excited to continue to move forward- to research some more installation/creative space artists and to continue to explore these ideas and different ways of using imagery.


Cheers to the next 11 or so weeks!

Where I’ve been and what I’m up to

I’ve decided to get into exploring this theme or concept of the pressures, burdens, and dirty work that is domesticity.  I’ve begun to print different images on fabric related to house hold chores, for example, doing the dishes.  I am inspired by the beautiful and detailed aprons that many women wore in the 1950s and 60s while they did such household chores.  They’re often beautiful with patterned flower fabric (which is something I have always loved), and ruffled edges or patterns and yet they would be cleaning and scrubbing floors, vacuuming, ironing, and cleaning greasy dishes in them.  Keeping up this beauty and happy wife persona even while doing such laborious and unglamorous tasks as household chores is very interesting to me.

I have started to make an apron of my own out of purchased fabric and plan to also make an apron or small sample out of the pieces that I printed on personally, (see below).  I plan to explore a photographic process using SuperSauce (Supersauce demo) which is a type of photographic transfer, on the fabrics that have floral patterns already on them.  I am concerned the fabric I bought may be a bit too busy, but we shall see.

I also plan to use the Supersauce to do some transfers onto dish towels as well.  In addition I will be exploring what happens to film when it is soaked in certain cleaning products over a period of time.  I currently have a digital print soaking in water and dish soap at home… I am wondering if it has started to fall apart yet.



A creative and personal manifesto of sorts

Looking at various manifestos and the definition of what an exact manifesto is, I was a bit overwhelmed.  However, upon continued research, note taking, and brain storming I came to the conclusion that I wanted to make one that was written with declarations and commanding statements.  I wanted to make pertinent not only the things that inspire me or that I care about but also the daily struggles I have as an artist.

Below you’ll find my manifesto as well as some references to ones that helped me reach the final result of mine.


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